Lord Help Me

Today is not an easy day. My wife's uncle has been just diagnosed with cancer. Doreen is a nurse so she knows the chances are survival are not so good. So she and her mom went to be with Doreen's aunt. Since Dorie is a nurse it would be good to play as medical speak to English translator. I stayed here at home which I don't think my Mother-in-law appreciated. I thought I could do some things here which would make it easier and help them focus on being their for Dorie Sue's aunt. So today I have done about six loads of laundry, dusted and vacuumed our bedroom and cleaned up in our bathroom. I also prepared my daughter's and my lunches for the week. In a way it feels good that I could help out in this way and I know at least my wife will appreciate it.

So why am I here with a stress headache? Well I fear my Mother-in-law will give me hell for doing what I did in our bedroom and bathroom. It just seems like almost every time I try to make and effort or do something nice around the house it ends up backfiring on me with her and that is so frustrating. If anyone wonders why Doreen and I do not make more of an effort to do stuff it is just that.

I could understand if she would say I appreciate you making an effort but would prefer ... fill in the blank. However that never seems to happen. It almost always ends up in a temper tantrum and I really get tired of those and I fear that is what is going to happen when they get home.

Doreen I am sorry if what I thought I was doing was wrong and causes some trouble here at home. I just feared that I would be in the way if I went with you and I could do some stuff here to help out and allow your mom and you to focus on your aunt and uncle. If you are mad at me I am sorry. I will still love you no matter what.